ANXIETY AND SUICIDE
You how many of us teens end up killing ourselves not only because of depression, sadness kills many of us as well, Either your parents don't treat you like you're family or may not even realize you are even there.....My parents got divorced when i was little and it changed the way i felt inside and destroyed everything of my thoughts and feelings but at the same time I am really thankful that my mom got the idea because to be honest he was a prick and most of us don't have the greatest lives most others have because we may not be popular or extremely noticed or get rejected all the time.
My life was hell because i didn't know what to do with myself after when i went to 7th grade at that god awful school i went to in 2009, i swear that school was the only reason why i lost my self confidence and started getting more and more angry everyday when i got out of school because of how the day ended, the last 4 years i have been hiding myself on the inside and didn't really want to show have funny i was or to show i wasn't shy around other people, anxiety has been kicking my ass every once a week giving me these thoughts that just randomly blow up my head thinking that people don't care or if i was forgotten, then after a few hours it finally pushes me to the limit to where i get the idea of suicide and ending up trying to do it by overdosing on pills i don't care what kind of pills they are all i wanted it to do was kill me, and i thought as long if i was to die and be fully gone people wouldn't have been so irritated and want to get away as far as they could so they wouldn't put up with me anymore, i keep leaving posts of suicide and i fear that no one is reading or listening.
most of the time my anxiety leads me to suicide and it doesn't seem to work if i do it
many people can't hear my voice crying for help and that upsets my lifeline and so far i haven't thought about death and i'm in therapy trying to get help
i just wish that i had some friends who would listen to my voice or read these words
I am always here to talk if you need someone. Thanks for blogging over the summer, I hope you can use this as an outlet to help you deal with how you feel. Please let me know if you need anything.
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